Mel C, one of the four Spice Girls, has revealed she longs for an intimate relationship but not with a woman, denying rumors that she is a lesbian, reported Foxnews. In an interview with the British tabloid The Mirror on Thursday, Melanie Chisholm, once known as Sporty Spice, said at first she was amused by the rumors that she was gay, but no longer.
"I used to think it was funny, but I’ve got a lot of fans who are lesbians and sometimes I get them coming up to me and saying: When are you going to come out?" "I started feeling guilty because I wasn’t gay. I was thinking maybe I should be a lesbian. Sometimes I wish I were because men are so crap. Do you know what I mean?"
Chisholm also told the newspaper that the rapid rise to fame and fortune with the Spice Girls had taken its toll and she had to fight an eating disorder, paralyzing self-doubts and depression. "It’s taken me a long, long time to get my head around what has happened and get on with my life," she said. Chisholm, who split from her most recent boyfriend J from the boy band Five in July, said the glamorous lifestyle of a pop star doesn’t make up for being without a partner. "It gets lonely. I think the hardest thing to deal with is being on stage in front of tens of thousands of people and you’re giving it all and then you go back to your hotel room and you feel so lonely. "Everyone thinks I’ve got this fantastic life but if you haven’t got a partner, then you’re lonely. That’s what everyone wants at the end of the day -- someone to call, someone to talk to. Instead, you sit there waiting for the buzz to go so you can fall asleep.
"My life as it is at the moment is almost faultless, but I would like a relationship. It’s not going to solve all my problems, but it would be nice -- someone to come home to, to watch telly with. I suppose I just want someone to adore me," she said.
The rumors that she was gay started after the publication of a photograph that included Mel C’s "close friend" Ying, who is in fact the assistant to all the Spice Girls. But while Chisholm can accept such rumors as part of the price she has to pay for her fame and fortune, she is angry because the stories have hurt Ying. "She doesn’t want to be famous. I get paid enough money to put up with it. It’s part of my job, she doesn’t. It’s not fair on her and her family”-Albawaba.com.
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